Do you ever just want a pair of arms to cry into? Strong arms, or rather, a strong person who will comfort you and tell you everything will be okay.
My ships are sailing. Translation: Two of my closest friends have recently started dating the guys I’ve shipped them with for years. I am really overjoyed, because they are really good matches. But I am also saddened, because things must change. It makes sense to go to your significant other for advice, to tell stories, and share secrets. That will take precedence over sharing with your good friend, as it should I suppose.
What if all of my friends get married to amazing people, perfect matches for them, and I am left alone? I guess I don’t have a problem being single until all of my friends have significant others. and are walking on air.
I wonder if my friends actually consider me an important person in their lives. I wonder if any has been or will ever be in love with me, and won’t be put off by my excessive emotions, quirky habits, and all of my imperfections.
I could be a nun. But I still need friends. I have learned the lesson that I need other people, not just God. Of course, I need God above all, but I have had to swallow my pride and accept that I cannot live without other human beings.
I love my youth group. I truly, deeply love them. I was imagining a what-if scenario where I had to be parted from them permanently, and I confess that I cried in the shower. My heart would break.
I feel stupid for being so emotional. Is any sensible person as emotional as I am? Am I a ninny? Will anyone understand what I’m feeling and not judge me for it? Again, I feel ashamed of my insecurity.
Whew. This is my most open post so far. No hateful comments, please. I just needed to write. Thank you for your patience.